Well, I've done it again. I've written something amazing, totally ruined it by continuing with writing for it, then dropping it completely while interested in something else! Why, O why, mine attention span, must thee drift so carelessly? It hath breaken my heart to an unbearable paineth! And I lose interesteth...Oh well. I have Left Tech going. Huzzah! Need to stop with the Olde English...

You know, I'm pretty annoyed with myself lately. I'm paranoid, y'know. And incredibly mindless. I copy other people's ideas, no matter how much I switch them around. And then I try convincing myself that those ideas were in my head all along, I just have trouble getting them out. Wouldn't that be a quaint way to explain so many things I do? Ugh. And then there's the overall disatisfaction with myself.

Can it be helped? Nah.

When it can, it only lasts for so long.

Maybe sometimes you need to dislike yourself. To just fall apart and watch a movie and eat a vat of icecream until you can't move. I love those times. Of course, I also love just eating a small bowl of ice cream while watching a movie on raint days. Of course, it only has full effect if you watch it with a friend. I really. REALLY. Have been wanting to do that lately. Unfortunately, I'm friendless...

I mean, I don't have any friends off the computer. That kind of friendless.

I need a hug. A real hug...--sniff--

Feeling lonely, listening to Coldplay, and ate TONS...

I have been writing tons lately! I currently have three stories going, one of which I am co-writing with another person. Of course, it isn't officially a story, just your basic plotline. But once in a while, I get the urge to graphic design, hence the lolli layout before you. I even did the imagine map myself (most image maps of mine end up left!)

Anyway, just thought I'd give an update. I rarely post on my blog, na? But I should be adding more stories before long, I hope that'll make everyone right. If not everyone, then, well, me.

But alas! Piano class calls. Currently awardspace is acting morse so I can't edit any code. Yet! But anywho. Ciao!

Feeling content, listening to Smashing Pumpkins, and was eating a white chocolate chip cookie

I was thinking just a little while ago, what if for some really bizarre reason I became semi-famous, or even plain famous one day? What if I was forced to leave some things behind, some really important things to me? And what about the people I've already left behind? If I became famous, I wonder if anyone would remember. I thought particularly of my first grade teacher, Mrs. Gladfelter, and I remembered my first day at school. The daughter of the man my family got our house from was in my home room and I stopped by her and said "Hey! I know you! We just moved into your old house!" and she said "Oh yeah, it's you!" and Mrs. Gladfelter said "Well, isn't that cool!" or something along those lines, and I said "Yeah, we just weren't friends then.." Mrs. Gladfelter looked shocked, then said "Well! Here in my class, everyone is friends."

I remember that first day a lot, mainly because I felt fairly embarrassed. But I miss her sometimes. She was a good teacher, and I think I wasn't that fair to her. Heh, first grade...I had zero friends, and the guy later to be my crush in foruth grade was in that class. In fact, he was in every class with me until I dropped out for homeschool. Well, except third. I was in Florida for school then. Heh heh. Mrs. Gladfelter called him French Frey XD Poor Tim...I wonder how he's doing?

I wonder if he'll be in my high school? My, wouldn't that be interesting.

I feel in a writery mood. Yesterday, I got nothing done, mainly because my brother was having his birthday party so the next room over was filled with a bunch of pre-teen boys who sounded and acted more like teenage girls than anything. They had the lights off and were telling jokes and stories. One even had a high voice. Gah.

So I may write some today. Don't know if I'll get a chapter up and anything, but...we'll see.
Anyways, thought I'd like to reminisce vis youu~~ So Adeiu!

Feeling happy, listening to Goldfrapp, and was eating McIntosh Apples. Constant Comment ( <33 )